After 14 years, what have I found to be of Special interest to me about God.

When my theophany first happened, I was at a complete loss as to what it meant. I did not know the word “theophany” at the time, and I did not know how to explain to others what happened to me while I was out cutting down a tree. It wasn’t until much later that I learned that my experience on that day cannot be transferred to another person. Moses, for example, could not transfer his experience with the burning bush to another person. That experience with God would always be his alone. For another person to understand the change that came over Moses after his experience, that person would have needed to be standing in front of the bush, too.

My fears that people would think I lost my mind on that day were completely unfounded. The truth is, my theophany is something they would never understand unless they were there, as I just stated. So all anyone could do was hear me out and, through this hearing, maybe gain strength in their personal faith in God. Those who thought I was a little loco and suddenly lost my mental faculties have never said to me personally that I was a nut. Well, in truth, we all know someone a little weird, and we know they wouldn’t take me seriously no matter what I said. Perhaps I am speaking of the lost? Meaning the lost to God!

The more I sat around thinking about what happened to me the more I began to understand that Almighty and blessed God (Also called Adonai by the Hebrews) is the whole universe that man is aware of. When the church says God is Omnipotent, Omniscient, and Omnipresent they are saying the same thing as me. Using bigger words of course, which require you the listener of these words to sit down and think through what their big words really mean. The word Omni attached to the front of the words Potent, Scient and Present is actually saying God is everything and everywhere and all knowing at one time and at the same time. Which is just like me saying God is the whole universe.

God hears everything you say and think. God watches everything you do, even what you do in private, which is not private to God at all. Which means if you harbor ill will in your heart towards another person, God sees what you are doing in the privacy of your own heart.

It is with this hidden knowledge kept from you that God knows we are all sinners. We are sinners because we lie. We lie to God, we lie to our family, our friends and we lie to ourselves continuously. Suppose we can acknowledge that what I just wrote is true. If we can accept this, we can begin to uncover our lies and even begin to repair the damage caused by all our lying.

The church teaches that we are all sinners because Adam and Eve first sinned against God. Adam and Eve sinned is true. But we must get rid of all our confusion about what their sin really was and how it applies to us today. Their sin is that they lied to themselves and to God and even exited the Garden of Eden never admitting to God that they lied to Him. (Check your scriptures in Geneses).

Our sin is found in looking at the scriptures and acknowledging that, as Adam and Eve were a couple of sinners because of their lying, therefore we are also sinners because we also lie. So yes indeed, Adam and Eve led the way with lying to God, just as we lie to God to this very day and every day. When looked at in this proper light, we can now see that the evil sin that Adam and Eve portrayed in the scriptures truly is handed down to every person born after them. All people are called sinners because all people lie.

I am sure the idea that you and I are liars does not sit right with most of you reading this blog. But some of you will nod in agreement, because we often know when we lie and sometimes even the reason for it. We think that Almighty God does not hear these lies (sometimes for the best of intentions). But I tell you they are heard, and He does judge us daily. We do receive blessings and curses from God based on how we live our lives under our own direction.

We live roughly 78 years on this planet. God says we are allowed to live 120 years. (Check the scriptures) We must come to terms with our lying to be blessed to live 120 years. We must shine the light of Jesus on everything we say and do and see ourselves as we really are, not who we pretend to be. Lies build upon lies. Proper understanding of when we lie and why we lie begins with acknowledging this sin. You may not believe this, but we accept our lies because the adults in our lives lied to us. Lying seems to be a natural condition of life. But God tells us otherwise. To correct this sin takes a lot of introspection. Not many of us want to walk this path.

So there, this is one of the things I have learned about Almighty God since my theophany. I work daily to uncover and correct my lying. Nobody is perfect, ever! But if you love God and His Son Jesus, we must begin our walk with them by stopping our lying. Even the lies we tell ourselves.

Amen,

L.

It’s been 14 years since my Theophany. What has changed in my life?

In 2012, I met Jesus while out cutting down Ash trees for firewood. The meeting of Jesus and how it happened is what my previous blog post has been about. That event turned my whole world upside down, and I have been struggling and dealing with the new reality ever since.

Meeting Jesus and the way that I did it is not the problem. Strangely, the problems that have developed in my life since that wonderful and blessed event are all tied to man’s attempts at Theology. Theo = God and logy meaning logic. God’s logic. Theology. What people teach each other in church and in their own homes about what God wants from each and every one of us.

I thought back in 2012 that I was ignorant about church, the Bible, and what God / Jesus wanted to see changed in me. Well, that is true, and I have had and continue to have breakthroughs in understanding. But since I am just a man and a sinner, like everyone everywhere is, my first supposition was wrong from the start. It is not that I am the ignorant one in the world, but rather, we are all ignorant because we are all sinners. Yes, sinners, but more than that, we all look for importance in our lives from everywhere except from our Creator.

Typically self-centered, I took on the world’s problems in 2012. I was the problem; I was the ignorant one. If I could correct the sin in me, I would better understand and do better by the world. Which, of course, would mean the world must first be perfect for that to be true. When worded that way, everyone can see that I was totally wrong. But it sure was hard to recognize the error in my logic when I was emotionally stressed out dealing with the shock of meeting our Creator in person.

The truth is that the world, in my opinion, is just as bad as me. Correcting myself was and is good. But no matter what I did to change me, the world at large continues to be just as it was. So, for example, when I went into churches with my new appreciation for our Creator and His Son Jesus, I expected that everyone in church was way ahead of me and understood so much more than I did about God and Jesus. Boy was I ever surprised, and continue to be surprised everyday just how far the church in general, has fallen away from God.

I will tell you, if you will hear me, that the main problem with the world’s understanding of theology is that the world does not believe what God says is true. I don’t mean that the world does not believe in the Bible or that it is true; I mean that the world does not believe God when He speaks to us through His Word in His Book. Take those Ten Commandments; we give lip service to how important they are, but we do not think them through or apply the words to ourselves as we live day to day. We seem to think it is enough to quote the words, or the book and verse, where to find the Commandments. We don’t actually apply those words to ourselves or our lives every minute of the day for the rest of our days… It appears to me that knowing the words is enough for the everyday man, but living our lives based on what the words say is simply asking too much.

Adam and Eve lost everything because they did not believe God. This is the root cause of all sin. Adam and Eve are sinners and all of their offspring are sinners because they did not, and their offspring does not to this very day, believe God when He speaks. It is really that simple and yet, profound. It is the same way with God’s Son Jesus. People read his words, quote his words, cherish his words, speak his words, but to not believe his words because if they did, they would have to change everything about their lives. This self introspection is too hard on people, they prefer living as they do in this modern world. The result, as far as God goes, is that God sees the lives people live as proof that they continue not to believe Him when He tells them what to do. They continue to sin against Him and His Son through their lack of belief.

I am just as bad. I am not writing these things to elevate myself above my readers. I live in this modern world too, and I like living as we all do. My frustration with myself can only be relieved by rereading God’s Word and really thinking about what He has said. I have even taken an interest in learning the definition of words as they were used during Moses’ day and during the first century of Jesus’ day. Dictionaries tell us how words are used today; you need to dig for what words meant to Jesus back 2,026 years ago. How can you be true to God and His Son if you don’t understand their words as they were used at the time? Take one word as an example. The word is Messiah. What does the word mean from 536 BC to 110 AD? How did the meaning of that word change by 325AD? After you have done a word search, ask yourself this simple question: When did Jesus become the Messiah, according to Jewish definition in the first century when Jesus lived? I will give you a hint. The definition of the word Messiah in Jesus’ day required that Jesus be anointed. Which means that, for you to understand the word ‘Messiah’ in Jesus’ day, you must also come to terms with the word’ anoint ‘ as used in Jesus ‘ day.

I am trying to come to grips with God’s truth versus my lifestyle everyday. I have been dealing with this stress for going on 14 years. I cannot just roll over and go back to sleep. I met God back in 2012, and I am not willing or able to forget that event. I wrestle with myself every day. There will come a day when I will die. I believe in Jesus, I have been cleansed in baptism, and I preach about him all the time, but when I die, it is God Himself who will judge me. I know this because Jesus has said so. Jesus said that he did not come to judge anyone but to save their souls. But there will come a day when we will be judged, and that Judge will be God, the Creator and Sustainer of all there is or ever will be.

I wonder every day, will my lifestyle today reflect the truth of God’s Word?

L.

Reposting of my first blog. 

How I came to know God exist.

I want you to know about how I came to know Jesus Christ is alive. This is a republishing of my early blog post. If you read this it will start you on a series of blogs leading up to where I am at today. Just follow the links. 10/22/19.

In the fall of 2012 I had an encounter with God. It happened when I was out cutting down dead Ash trees. The tree I had cut with my chain saw would not fall down no matter what I did and in frustration, I put my left hand on the trunk of the tree and said these words: 

“Jesus, I do not know if if your Bible is true or not, but it says somewhere in it that whatever I ask for in your name you will do. Well Jesus, I need your help getting this tree dow . . . ”

That is as far as I got with my words. The tree, that I spent over an hour trying to fell down, suddenly began to fall over. I jumped back about 3 paces and at an angle away from the rear of the tree. Spun around to watch the tree fall and as I looked it occurred to me that the tree was about to fall on my Massey Ferguson 135 tractor. Without even thinking, I ran back to the tree with my arms out in front of me and said “Wait, wait, wait.”.  That was all I said.

The tree was about 80 feet long and I guess it would weigh in about 8,000 pounds. Maybe more. I never stopped to figure it out. But, that tree was nearly to the ground when it stopped moving in mid air, and began to lift itself back up as it returned to the upright position on its own cut trunk.

I was standing right behind the tree. Looking straight at it as it returned to an upright position. I did not think to move out of the way or nothing. I just stood there. Frozen in the moment. Not able to think of anything except how that tree just did what it did.

As I stood there thinking it suddenly dawn on me that I had asked Jesus for His help. The tree was lifted up by Jesus. And more importantly, Jesus was still there with me as I knew I didn’t lift that tree up and I had yelled wait, wait, wait so he must be waiting on me. So I got down on one knee, looked to where the tree was headed when it was falling, I realized it was the angle that I backed away to that caused me to think the tree was going to hit my tractor. From a position directly behind the tree where I was now, I knew it was going to fall right where I wanted it to fall.

I stood back up and put my hands in my back pockets, and speaking directly to the tree said the most stupidest thing I could say to the Lord. I said, “It’s okay Jesus, you weren’t going to hit my tractor.” And without a further word or action from me that big old tree just fell to the ground with a thump.

Jesus, I don’t know if your Bible is True or Not

Those were the words I used when I was praying to God to help me with cutting my Ash tree down. Curious choice of words – would you agree? I mean, if you want God’s help doing anything would you normally start your prayer by saying: I don’t know if you are real or if you even exist but if you do, hey, I could use a little help here. . .  So why did I use those words?  I can tell you what was going on in my mind easy enough but I cannot tell you why I felt the need to protect myself as I did that day.

In my mind, I was embarrassed to not be able to cut down the tree. I was embarrassed to not be able to cut down the tree using a modern chain saw. I was embarrassed to not be able to push that tree over as I had done on so many other occasions when out harvesting trees. I was deep down furious with myself for failing at cutting this tree down. My pride was on the line and I was about to admit I was at a loss for what else to do. All of these things are true, but to get much closer to the truth, I didn’t want anyone who might have heard me to think I believed in prayer. Now there wasn’t anyone out there in the field with me. So who exactly was I afraid of hearing me that I couched my words so carefully by prefacing the prayer with the words: “I don’t know”.

The words “I don’t know”meant excuse me if I am wrong. It meant; I am not right in saying this I know. . .. “I don’t know” was a self serving set of words that I used to excuse myself for “doing what I was about to do”. I was excusing my outer self for embarrassing itself to my inner self. I was excusing me … to me. I was setting the stage for the expectation that I knew was going to come, the expectation that the tree wasn’t going to fall over by prayer. The expectation that although I was calling on the LORD, I knew He would not answer. It was foolishness to me to say such words and yet here I was calling on the LORD when I knew in my heart (inner man) Jesus would not answer.

I feel so dirty. So cheap. I cannot seem to forget it. Maybe I am not suppose to forget. It is a big lesson that all of us should remember. There is inside of us another person. His name is the same as yours. And we all know instinctively that we have this other person, this inner man. We know we have private thoughts that no one can know unless we tell them. We all know that we can control our outer bodies and mouth to project to the rest of society whatever we want them to believe. Meanwhile we do whatever we really want to do inside our own mind. We all know our inner man does not have to believe, do, or say what we project to the people around us. 

At the Tree, my inner man who did not believe in prayer was in conflict with my outer man in that the outer man was about to pray. Therefore I said: I don’t know. As if the outer man was saying to the inner man, I don’t know if this will work, let’s just try it and see. As if the outer man was seeking the approval of the inner man.

Who would ever have thought that the outer man has his own mind? Yet this experience tells me at least, that he does. The outer man was searching for a solution to the tree problem. It was he that through out the idea of a prayer. (I know this even if you won’t believe.)

Normally this inner man/outer man situation would not be a problem. The outer man would pray and nothing would happen. The inner man would say, I thought so and I was right, prayer does not work. Both men would simply chalk it up to a repeated experiment that also did not work and go on.

BUT, Jesus did answer. The tree did go down, and up, and down again. Kaboom.

Now we have a situation. The outer man was right and the inner man wrong. Now both must deal with a different truth than the one we have always known. God is real and He does have a Son named Jesus. Oh boy. What are we going to do now?  The normal course of action is to continue with life as if nothing happened. That’s the simplest way to go. The hard road is to now rethink everything. This goes for the outer man too. He cannot go through life on autopilot. They now must change both the inner man and the outer man because Jesus is real and He knows both sets of thoughts. Inner and outer. He knows if you’ve been bad or good (so be good for goodness sake).

This situation has been so unsettling to me. Why? Because I really did say those words and I said them out loud and I know I did not believe that anything would happen and yet the LORD heard me and answered the prayer in a spectacular way. (Please read my other blog essays). The Bible says you gotta believe, you must have faith and I can truthfully say I was not a believer as outlined by the Bible nor did I have faith. If anything I was throwing in the towel, giving up, preparing myself for failure. None of which should have lead Jesus to help me just because I requested it. His help came to me through His mercy. I know I didn’t deserve His help just because I said a prayer to Jesus. That is what is very unsettling to me that Jesus had mercy on me. I still don’t believe I deserved such mercy. 
I guess that is the whole point of this Tree incident. When I was at the end of my rope, I called upon the LORD for help. People don’t call on the LORD much when they have everything under control. People don’t call on the LORD TO DO SOMETHING for them, when they have a phone, a car, a government, an insurance card, a surgeon, a firemen, police officers, the military and parents or spouse to do for them. We usually wait until all other options have been used up, before we call upon the LORD, if we even do so then. I was no different. But now I call upon Him often. (I tell you something of major importance, if you belong to Him,  Jesus will help you on the smallest of needs.) 

I love and have loved all of God’s creation. I always believed in a God. But not necessarily the God of the Bible. I did use the name of Jesus in my prayer. I did not call upon a generic God when I said my words. I called upon Jesus simply because I knew that He was the originator of the scripture that said: “Whatever you ask for in my name I will do.”  (John 14:14) So I called upon His name. I could have said: God I don’t know if your Bible is true. Yet, to this day, I  believe, had I said that the prayer would not have been answered. Of course I do not know this for sure.

Today I do get mad with people who always speak the word God in place of the name Jesus. Oh, I know Jesus called Himself God in the bible and I know people are right to use that name. But as for me, I have moved away from using the God word unless I am thinking or speaking about Almighty God, the Great I Am, otherwise known as Jehovah. I think many prayers go unanswered because people use the God word. My tree taught me that, it did not come out of somebody’s mouth. I also know the scriptures confirm what I have written just now. They say by no other name can you be saved and I believe it.

Jesus.
L.

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How lost I Was

As I continue telling you of my renewed Bible studies and of my understanding I ask that you remember that I wasn’t a Christian before my Tree incident. I was not an atheist either. I was just a regular guy living in America doing what all Americans do; which is pretty much being self absorbed in my own life. What I mean by that is I did the things I was interested in doing. I studied what I wanted to study. Did the things I wanted to do. Decided for my own self what is right and what is wrong in life. A patriot, a business man, an investor into stocks, somewhat athletic as I exercised a little with weights and practiced the martial art called American Kenpo under Professor Joe Doyle and Master Richard Planas (who also goes by the name “Huk”Planas). 
I wasn’t a bad guy then nor am I now. I didn’t drink but a couple of beers a year, do not smoke cigarettes or marijuana, no drugs of any kind. I also do not go out chasing skirts, and always felt white lies were okay if you were not wanting to hurt someone’s feelings but as a rule do not lie. Not a gambler either. As a married man I was enjoying my marriage and was happy to not have had any children. (I have been concerned about the economy of America for many years, long before President Trump became our Nation’s President and just didn’t want the responsibility of raising children in the world I grew up in.) I like to read and study just about everything. I have a nice library and have spent hundreds of hours searching the internet exploring just about every interest I have had. Also I had no debt and was not strapped financially. No sickness, no cancer, no heart attack, no nothing. Everything was just fine in my life.

Then came the Tree Incident and changed everything.

I had read my Bible before. But did not read it with the power of Grace which comes only from God. No I simply read it for myself. I had had some religion as a child, my parents had the family in a Methodist church in Reynoldsburg, Ohio. I believed in God, we called him Jesus Christ not God the Father. I knew the Christmas story and what Easter was all about. And I knew that the Bible was suppose to be read from beginning to end. I tried many times to do just that; read it from beginning to end. But when I read it I skipped over large sections of it, I just looked for the interesting stories that I could find, as I was not interested in connecting the dots of history. Certainly I did not cross reference the stories of the Bible with secular history and archaeology. That didn’t happen until after my tree.

To my way of thinking, the Bible was nothing more than the world’s oldest and first school book. A history book put together by Israel that taught the people of Israel where they came from and what their forefathers had done to get the Jews to where they where some 2,000 years ago. The Bible was outdated of course because I knew even the Jewish people did not live that way in my day and age. Since I wasn’t a Jew the old testament just didn’t matter to me anyway. Everything in the old testament was simply made up in my opinion. Written to move the Jewish people into the direction the Jewish government wanted them to move. Just that simple. 

None of that heroic stuff listed in the old testament ever happened. I knew that. Look around people, I would say, have you ever witness such crazy stuff today? No, of course not, that’s because it isn’t true. We have cameras and recorders and satellites in the sky. If there was a heaven we would have found it by now. There was no burning Bush, no crossing of the Red Sea by the Israelites,  no walking sticks that turned into snakes when thrown onto the ground. The plaques of Eygpt? Never happened. I did not believe any of that stuff. I was willing to bet my life on it.

The new testament wasn’t much better for me, Jesus just seemed to be a teacher of good and he bucked the government of the Jews, so he had to die. Of course he was buried and some of his followers found out where he was placed, stole his body out of the tomb, and now everyone in the world believed he had risen from the dead. Yeah, right. If anybody believed that then I had some swamp land in the desert I want to sell ya. What about all those years between when he was twelve and than thirty? Where was he, what was he doing, why didn’t we hear about that stuff? Seems to me if he was the son of God and was around for thirty years we would read a lot more about his earlier life. What’s with this sudden showing up in Judah and claiming he was Messiah? Seems to me he would have some notoriety long before he turned some water into wine. If he even did that. . . 

And who in their right mind would ever believe a single word out of the mouth of the Apostle Paul? A radicalized Jew who believed his religion and government was always right. A murderer, and a man who self admitted he was like a chameleon, he would become in personality any type of person necessary to convince others of his beliefs. He claimed to be proud of his Jewish heritage yet ultimately changed sides of his loyalty, becoming like a Christian only after he was rejected by the Jewish men of the synagogues. They even stoned him for heaven’s sake. They knew he was a fraud. Of course the story on the road to Damascus was all made up. Paul made it up to explain why he switch sides to the Christian team. I figured he was so hungry for fame and fortune that when the Jews didn’t give him the notoriety he craved, he switch sides. So much of the new testament was written by Paul, who could believe it. Fact is, whenever any of my Christian friends mentioned the Apostle Paul or any of his writing I would immediately think a lot less of that person. Weak minded they were. Yes Paul had won some converts to “his” Gospel, but only a fool would believe in him and I wasn’t buying it. I was so complete sold on my point of view, that even after my tree incident, the Apostle Paul and his writings were still held suspect in my minds eye. His writing were the most difficult for me to sit down and read!

Believe in the bible? I could not bringing myself to do it. In fact, I used to tell people if they ever saw me out preaching the Bible then they would know I was slipping into dementia. It would be time for them to seriously consider sending to a home for the elderly. Because I would be losing my mind and going senile.

Of course all that I wrote about above was going on with me before I had my Tree Incident. Now I know God is real and His Son is real, Heaven and Hell are real and true too. (If your new to my blogging, know that I have written about my experience with God when I was out harvesting one dead Ash tree. Go to my blog site and catch up on what I am writing about before you judge what I have written here.)  And now I recognize what an idiot I have been.

Please do not take anything I have written herein out of context. I would hate to think people were misreading my words and using my words to convince others that God is not real. You see that is what I did when I read my Bible without having the power of Grace in my life.  As it was I took everything in the Bible out of context. I misunderstood the text, misquoted the text, quoted the scriptures out of order, and read into the scriptures my own bias opinions. All of which lead me to false conclusions. However, I believed I was right and I carried that conviction almost all of my adult life.  Easily for over 50 years of my life I believed I was right!  I thought I knew deep down in my soul that the entire Bible was just a con setup by religious people. These religious people were out to separate a fool from his money and nothing more. I was not going to be one of those fools.

But my LORD showed me in His unique way that I was a fool for not studying His Word.

Thank you My LORD.

Studying My Bible, Looking for God Pt. 2

Many years ago when I was newly married I began to study hypnosis. Hypnotism said that it could make me a better person. Self hypnosis seemed to me the key to unlocking my potential. And so I did buy some books and began to study the methods and in the quiet of the evening, when no one was around to watch me, I practiced self hypnosis. I was a smoker back then and I wanted  to quit. I was getting soft in the middle so I wanted the discipline to go workout with weights and to make myself stronger and more athletic. There were many ways I thought I could improve myself and in some small ways this self hypnosis stuff did seem to be working.

One of the things I noticed in my self administered hypnosis sessions was the ability to talk to myself and to also listen to myself. I noticed that the answers that came back to me were given audibly, as if I was hearing the answers in my mind as opposed to say… reading the answers.  I discovered I can ask myself questions and my own brain would then give me answers to those questions. 

This is kinda cool I thought. But I also thought or knew that there must be limitations to this arrangement. I wondered  what were the limitations of this arrangement? Is there any question beyond limits? To me it seemed obvious that I could not ask myself questions about subjects I knew nothing about. For I knew the answers to such questions must be wrong. If I asked something like; Where does gravity come from? My brain did struggle to give me an answer but without resolution. 

So there are limits to self hypnosis.

Sometimes I found myself exploring my own creativity, coming up with possible solutions to a question I knew I did not know the answer to but I would ask the question anyway just to see what kind of answers came back to me. It worked well in a lot of ways. I discovered things about myself that I just never would have thought about in any other way. Then one day I thought to myself this must be the way great thinkers arrive at their conclusions. Did Albert Einstein for example run these exercises in his own head to arrive at his conclusions I wondered? 

Yes, said the voice…  

Wow, where did that answer come from? Because at that moment, I wasn’t really asking myself one of my hypnosis type questions. I was just doing normal thinking. Like we all do in this world. That’s when it hit me that we do all communicate with ourselves all the time. We talk to ourselves and work out our own solutions on a daily or even minute by minute basis. All I had been doing with these self hypnosis sessions was strengthening the communication between my body and my mind. You might think of it like this: Connecting my conscious brain with my sub-conscious brain. Tapping into the computer capabilities of the human mind that I do not seemingly use and unleashing more of my thinking capabilities.

So I began running many question and answer sessions with myself. And then one evening I got to thinking about the voice that was in my head. It was clearly my voice. I heard myself give answers to my own questions. I also noticed that I could change the sound of that voice at will. I could for example think the voice into a deep sounding male voice or change it to a high pitched female voice and the answers I then received from my own questions came to me in that new voice until I switched back to my own voice. This was interesting to me at the time. 

I wondered then if there was also a separate personality behind the voice? In other words, I knew what I liked and what I did not like in this old world. I liked chocolate ice cream over vanilla ice cream for example. I wondered if the voice that gave me answers also had opinions about stuff that differed from my own. I could never really get a satisfactory answer about that. It seemed that the voice really had no special likes or dislikes. But this study did give me lots of other things to think about. Then one evening I asked the voice in my head a simple question, and the answer the voice gave amazed me and has stuck with me the rest of my life. Even today, I hear the answer to my question as if it was just yesterday. The question was: Who are you? 

The voice said; I am what I am.

Fast forward to today. I had just had my tree incident and had finally got back to rereading my Bible. I had worked through a review of Genesis and was focused on Exodus. I was excited to be reading the very words of a man, who lived some 5,000 years ago. I was reading in his own language the thoughts and actions he went through when he first met God at the burning Bush and afterwards as he lead the Israelites out of captivity from Egypt. I was reading Exodus 3:14 when I stumbled across the words that God told Moses after Moses asked Him what he should tell the people of Israel is the name of their God. The answer? God said: I AM THAT I AM.

I couldn’t move out of my chair. I had a tingling deep in my gut. The tears began to flow down from my eyes. I felt so ashamed. Here I was reading about Moses because I wanted to know more about how he interacted with God so that I could understand more about my interaction with God and I have just discovered that I had once talked with God before, many years ago. But was too stupid to understand. I felt so ashamed…I prayed for forgiveness real hard that night. And hit my studies with more effort than ever before. I wanted to know more about God, I wanted to know what else have I missed because I have been so hard headed, so stiff necked about the LORD of all CREATION?

Christmas 2018

Last night when singing at Brookdale Retirement Center in Mount Vernon, Ohio I mentioned that December is not really when Christ was born. A man in the audience asked me when I thought Jesus was born? I said that nobody knows but I have read most scholars think He was born in August. The man suggested that Jesus was born in the spring. I ask how that could be and he said, that according to our Bibles the Shepherds were out watching over their sheep by night. He went on to say, That the only time Shepherds would be out, at night, with their sheep is when the sheep are giving birth and that Sheep give birth in the spring.

I did not know that sheep give birth in the spring nor did I recognize the reason why the shepherds were in the field keeping watch over their flocks by night. Jesus is the great shepherd who watches over His sheep. How fitting it is to learn that the Shepherd Himself was born as are the sheep, in the spring.

Now I am wondering about Jesus’s death and resurrection, did He also died and was also resurrected by God the Father in the spring?

I know when I write this next set of words that some of you will shut me down. As soon as I write what you disagree with, many of you will click another link and be gone. I sincerely hope and also do pray that one day you will see for yourself the error of your way and come back to this blog and begin reading again about what I write next.

The greatest gift we can ever give someone is the gift that comes to them through knowing Jesus Christ. To find someone who has not accepted Jesus as their LORD and Master and show them what it means to repent of their current and former life and to come to Jesus is simply the best gift we can give another. There is no greater gift of Love that can be given. To show another person that all the mistakes they have ever made with their life can be forgiven and forgotten and that they can start over their life with a completely cleaned history, such as is given to a new born baby is just fabulous.

This gift from God through the gift giver’s effort, is going to remove every self criticism the recipient has ever had. God is going to remove these criticisms right out of their life. Every error they have made is forgotten too. Once a person comes to Jesus Christ their past just disappears from both themselves and from the memory of God, the Creator of us all. Those who will come to Christ will be as if reborn. Given back their life to start over anew and also given the ability and guidance needed to live well into the future by learning the ways of God through proper Bible usage.

No person can clean up their life on their own. They do not have the ability to fix themselves. No matter how many Psychologists or Psychiatrist they visit, no matter how many religious people they interview, no matter how much drinking or pill taking they indulge in, no matter how much discipline they force themselves to do, they cannot clean their past with their own will. They cannot become a new creature, turn over a new leaf as they say, and just become a new person. Why? Because they lack the Spirit that comes only from God. Without this Spirit, all things remain as they are. These people will go to their death haunted by their past. 

All the people that think they can make themselves perfect will continue fail and to make errors. All those who think they can pick themselves up by their bootstraps and change their own lives will never be emotionally happy with themselves. They will continue to remember all their past and will continue to suffer because of that past. (A past that could have just occurred an hour ago.) God will not help them. God has said (Genesis 4:7) that you can do things His way or you can go your own way but you go it your own way you will go it alone without Him. In short, all these people continue to sin. They cannot help but fail. They have not the power that comes from God.

Sin is controlled through the power of the Spirit that comes from God.

God, through His Son Jesus Christ, will only send His Spirit to a person when that person accepts Jesus Christ as their LORD.

The greatest gift one person can give another is the gift that comes from knowing Jesus Christ our Saviour.

Studying My Bible, Looking for God:

“You have studied everything else; Now study Me!”

Edited December 19, 2018

Those words written above came from God into my mind. I have told you in a previous essay that I know when God is speaking to me as what He says in my mind aligns very well with Biblical scripture and is different than what I would normally choose to think or do. I would never say to myself – “Now study Me“. That would be silly. Yet the words you read above have came into my mind many times since my Tree incident. They come from God. I am sure of it.

After I harvested the Tree and settled down into the new reality of knowing that God and Jesus truly exist. It was natural that I would begin to study my Bible. As I wrote before in a previous essay; I wanted to study the Bible. I knew from experience that there were many “stories” within its pages that I had previously rejected as being myths, legends, ancient beliefs, even Jewish teaching that I could now read and study to compare what was in them to what had just happened to me. I thought those stories would enlighten me, help me to better understand the tree incident. I was not prepared to learn things the other way around, in other words, that my Tree incident would prepare me to understand those biblical stories better then ever . . .  And come to accept them as they are and not as I wanted them to be.

The Bible study I thought might take a month or two to complete is continuing even today and will probably continue the rest of my life. There seems to be no end in sight for the learning I am going through. 

The Bible I use faithfully is the 1599 Geneva Bible and I use it because it was created before there were Christian denominations. I see in the denominational bibles words that appear to me to be used to slant the bibles towards the views of the denomination. Mostly this is found in the study notes. But I have also found denominational bibles where the text of the scriptures themselves have also been altered to prove the denomination. This is absolutely a no no in my opinion. 

Then there are bibles used by the Roman Catholics which of course reflects not only scripture but also the edicts put forth by all the Popes. No thank you to all of them. I will stay with my Geneva. It is hard enough to learn the words of scripture. I don’t want to read a modern bible and find later on that the words used in it were not God’s words but mans. When I get to Heaven, I want God to know I did the best I could to get things right. I don’t  want Him to tell me I was using a book of Satan’s while I was running around on the earth. . . That would also be a no no in my opinion.

The people responsible for the creation of the Geneva bible also died as Martyrs for God to make this bible a reality. They put everything they had on the line for God, for Jesus the Christ. I have no doubts to its truthfulness. This is THE Bible of the new world, and as I understand it, it came over on the boat called the Mayflower with the Puritans. This should still be the Bible of America, but we seem to have lost our way to God. All these people who wrote, published, distributed, and used this bible in their churches and for personal use died for these scriptures of God. I can do no less. I will stay with this text.

In my opinion all the other bibles have been corrupted by the hands of well meaning people, but corrupted just the same. I know the publishers say they are producing more accurate translations of the scriptures but the temptations put forth by Satan to use these translations and to get included and to use other outside ancient documents to improve the Bible’s so called accuracy can also alters the very words of God. This seems to be too much for sinful man to understand –  that Satan will cause false scriptures to be produced and to call these false scriptures as being THE Bible.

Mind you I own John Mac Arthur’s American Standard Bible, R.C. Sprouls Reformation Bible in English Standard Version, also the King James and even a NKJV Chronological Study Bible. These are great bibles, I do not honestly know if they are corrupted but I do know if you are going to follow along with me in my studies and you use a different bible, you will have some difficulties understanding why I write what I write because your Bible may say something at odds with my Geneva. Remember, I use the 1599 version not the earlier 1569.

Now, I was unprepared for how this new or renewed bible study would emotionally and spiritually effect me. Before; when  I read my Bible it was just another book. This is because I have read hundreds of books in my lifetime and I had read the Bible before. So reading it again would not be a new experience for me. I knew what to expect in its pages. But now; because I have a vested interest and I know God does exist and because of the super natural aspects of what I saw with the tree, these new biblical readings have become serious business with me. Reading the Bible is not just an educational exercise anymore because the words of scripture have come alive. They speak to me in ways I could never imagine before the Tree came into my life.

It’s a little like the difference between reading what it would be like to be in a really nasty car crash compared to actually being in that car crash. No one can adequately described to you how much pain and mental anguish you will have go through on your way back from near death. Words cannot describe going through the car crash and it’s aftermath. You have to live through it to fully understand it. 

Well, words cannot describe how my interaction with the tree effected my understanding of the scriptures. God was in the tree and God is in the scriptures. When I read the scriptures before the Tree experience I had one view of them. After the Tree I experienced a completely different viewpoint. I cannot fully explain to anyone else the Glory of God I now see within the Bible and nobody could prepare me for the new awakening I was about to receive from God. I just had to experience it for myself! As far as I am concerned Jesus Christ at the same time as He raised the tree He also raised me up from death in the flesh to a new life in the Spirit of God. 

As much as I would like to start preaching to you about Jesus Christ, I cannot do that because for me to preach I would be talking scripture alone without any of my personal antidotes mixed into the conversation. The word “Preaching” is reserved for the Gospel of God which includes His Kingdom and includes the Gospel of Jesus the Christ His Son. What I am doing in these essays is just about what has happened to me, I show you how God and Jesus Christ have effected me in the hope that my words will be a blessing to you from God in some way. But as long as I am producing my antidotes into these essays I cannot at the same time preach. You will hear or read the words of God in stand alone fashion. 

I will not dirty the works of the LORD by adding in the words of a sinner to them. God’s words are pure and righteous. You ought to read them as He, the great I AM, wrote them. With all dignity and with the greatest of respect. For they are the words of my sovereign LORD the Creator of all there is and all there ever will be. He is yesterday, today and tomorrow. He never changes. He is Truth. He is always right. He is God!

As I started to read my Bible I had to start reading it over from the beginning many times because as soon as I started to read a passage, my old opinions about what I was reading kept popping back into my mind. Decisions I had made long ago about the stories kept intruding on my thoughts. These old thoughts became so invasive that I could not focus on what I was actually reading. I had to put the Bible down for awhile. And that was hard to do because I really wanted to let my new experience with the Tree let me see the scriptures in a new light. 

I tell you I had to get really forceful with myself, I had to repeatedly remind myself that the Bible is true as I had received conformation that it is true directly from God Himself. The arguments in my mind got so bad that I needed sometimes to take a break from reading and walk around my house repeatedly going over the same section of scripture and telling myself over and over and out loud to remember these words are Truth. I tell you it is the hardest thing in the world to have a solid belief in some subject and than to have to unwind that thinking and to rewire your brain to accept another reality. 

In accordance with scripture I believe the arguments being put forth in my mind were from the evil one. He tried and continues to try to make me turn away from the scriptures. But he cannot win, he might as well quit right now, because God has shown me He is alive and therefore I also know Satan is alive. Now because I know Satan is alive, Satan cannot use his tricks on me and fool me like he could before, he will never take my God experience from me. I will reject all attempts by Satan to undermine the Glory that belongs to God alone. The scriptures belong to God and in them alone do I believe.

Even today as I read the scriptures with a clearer understanding, Satan continually tries to trick me into thinking back like I use to. I tell you his evil keeps trying to turn me away from being on solid ground with my LORD. I pray continuously for guidance and strength not to let evil into mind and for my LORD to shine His light on the scriptures so I can understand them as He meant for them to be understood and not as a mortal man would think of them.

What I was specifically looking for in my Bible early on after my Tree incident were stories about the men and women who were not out actively seeking God for themselves but found themselves face to face with Him in in an otherwise very normal day of their lives. Stories where the subject was confronted by God when they least expected it. I wanted to read in detail how God came to be known to them, what were they doing at the time and what they did about it afterwards. 

Now mind you I read all the Bible and I was no slacker when it came to reading Genesis. I study Genesis a lot and feel that there is little point of deep study of the Bible if you do not dig in to the bibles entire context. But after my tree, the first story I wanted to read again, slowly and with attention to the details, was the story of Moses. (Exodus 2: and Exodus 3).

MOSES;

Now Moses was a Jew. (I am not) We all know that he was Jewish as our Bible says so. He was a special child in that his parents put him up for adoption by floating him in a miniature Ark, a small version of the boat that Noah built. His adopted parent was a princess of Egypt and the nanny to the child actually was Moses’s mother. So Moses grew up being trained as Egyptian royalty with the finest education Egypt had to offer while at the same time being schooled by his mother to be an Israelite. 70 years went by and Moses found himself as an exile from Eygpt. Living among sheep herders in the desert, then one day he had an experience with God that changed his whole life. I wanted to study this man’s story very carefully.

Like me, Moses was an older man, he about 70 and I am 61 at the time of this writing, I was about 54 when the Tree moved. Moses was highly educated. (Probably much smarter than I am.) I am self educated having spent a lifetime reading the works of other men. Moses found himself working in manual labor, same as me. He was a shepherd and I am a carpenter. Both jobs pay little and offer much hard work, but they also offer up a quality of life that is simple and honorable for both of us. One day while out doing his work, living a normal life, Moses was tending sheep and just doing what a Shepherd does when he had his experience with God. I too was out doing my work, living a normal life, doing what I do when cutting down trees for firewood, when I had my experience with God. In the story of Moses, it is told that he saw a fire up on the mountain and that Moses had to turn toward that fire and climb up the mountain to get a better look at why the Bush was not consumed. For my part, I spent my time doing everything I could think of to figure out why the tree I cut would not fall down. Moses was focused on his task and I was focused on mine. Moses had an actual discussion with God. I did not have an actual discussion with God although I did learn a thing or two from the experience. Moses’s discussion with God changed his whole life, he went to work for God and 50 years later Moses died as leader of about a four million + Jews living out in the desert who were about to cross over the river Jordan into God’s promised land. My experience with my Tree also changed my whole life, but unfortunately for now, I do not know what I may be doing for God in the years to come. 

I so wanted to study this story at that time, I have read it probably 25 + times since I started this new life. Here are a few other things I noticed that are meaningful to me: 

Moses talked back to God. (Exodus 3:11)  This is very meaningful to me because I in my prayer life discuss what is bothering me as a newer Christian with God. As my story unfolds you will learn that I have often talked back to God. Sometimes the things I have said should have got me killed. But God allowed it through His Grace. When I read about Moses actually arguing with God and telling God he was not fit to lead the Israelites out of Eygpt, or that he did not speak well enough to be God’s spokesman, I am amazed that anyone would talk like that to GOD but also relieved to see that a mere mortal man could talk back to God and live. Greater still,  Moses did it while looking directly at THE burning Bush that was not being consumed. That takes guts in my opinion. To be standing there, on Holy ground, actually listening to a bush talk, knowing he was talking directly to God the Creator of all, and to argue with him? That takes guts as I previously wrote. In my situation I talked to a tree that didn’t talk back although it’s silence has been deafening for me ever since. God spoke to me without saying a word. I guess that is what signs are meant to deliver when they come from God.

Moses told God he was not fit to do God’s work. That takes courage, but has there ever been a Christian that you know of that has not said the same thing? Perhaps he said it to himself or to his pastor, or to God while in prayer that he or she was not qualified to do God’s work? Moses was really speaking for all of us. None of us ever feel we are really qualified to do the work for God we are called upon to do.

God told Moses he is the God of Moses’s fathers. The God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob. (Exodus 3:6) The question in my mind becomes; Does this mean the God of my Tree is also the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob? I believe it does. I claim the God of Moses as my God. 

Then we are told Moses hid his face from God: for he was afraid to look at God. Please remember there were no scriptures at the time of Moses’s encounter with God, Moses did not read somewhere to not look at God, it was Moses that wrote the book of Exodus that I am reading. So why include this fact in his retelling of his experience with God? We do learn later on in our Bible study that God shows himself as light. Moses spent so much time with God he eventually had to cover his head when talking to his people, Moses head or face eventually began to glowed as light! Reflecting the light of God. (Also, we read in the Apostle Paul’s conversion story that he too saw God as a bright light, so bright that Paul lost his sight.)  I think it shows that the light of the fire coming out of the Bush was brighter then any campfire we might envision for our own selves. Another reason why Moses hid his face from God could simply be from the fear that was running through Moses’s soul on that day. I know that fear, I had it too on the day my Tree moved. Yet I do not know how I would have reacted if my Tree had actually spoke to me. . .

I also find it interesting that Moses would not look upon the face of God, yet, as soon as God told him he was to go to Egypt and bring the Israelites out, as soon as God told Moses what to do, Moses argued against God. Right here we read what has often been preached in church, man thinks he is equal to God. Man seems to want to be in charge of his own destiny even while directly facing God. This is sin being showed to us in full force. Moses did not want to change his lifestyle, he did not want to go to Egypt, he did not want to possibly be arrested. So he argued against his own sovereign LORD and did so live while God was right in front of him!

I know this is sin because God Himself has told us what sin actually is: Genesis 4:6-7. Whereas God told Cain not to be upset with either God or his brother Able . . . Because sin is close by and is ready to jump on Cain. My Bible also tells me that sin is subject to man’s will and that man must control HIM!  Genesis 4:7. This teaching is the only definition given directly by God concerning what sin is. Therefore this scripture is the very definition of the word sin and it tells us clearly that the word sin is the name of a male. Could the word sin also be the proper name for the evil one? Him who modern man calls Satan? You decide, but for me the answer is yes: Satan’s proper name is Sin. It is Sin that provokes us to not do what God tells us to do. It is Sin that caused Moses to argue with God. This is important that you understand the importance of Genesis 4 because no one was alive to tell Moses what happened back in the beginning of time except God Himself. The first six chapters of Genesis had to be told to Moses by God. Even if the information was handed down orally through Jewish customs, it still came from God because the scripture tells us it did.

Many modern bibles have altered the scripture of Genesis 4. These new bibles say Sin is an it. “They” say this because the word it fits better with the traditions of the church. The Church has always considered sin as being an attitude. Something that with proper education man can learn to alter. By using the word sin like that they are free to label anything they want as being a sin or being sinful behavior. It is helpful they think to understanding the whole of the Bible. Helpful in their translations of the scriptures. But to change the scripture and a scripture recorded as God’s own words, into something man wants is, well, sinful. And I can think of only one entity that wants to change God’s words into his own. . .

I think I have written enough in this essay. I now want to take a little break and take some time to clear my mind. Moses will continue in my next essay as will my sharing with you the torture I have gone through and am still going through because of my new understanding of who God is and the reality of Jesus Christ.

Bible vs My Prayer. (Title changed)

If you have read my other essays than you know how God interacted with me while I was out harvesting a dead Ash tree. During my desperation at not being able to fell the tree in a normal way, I said a prayer and asked Jesus for His help. I said a prayer to God but I did not really think of my words as being a prayer at the time. They were just words to me, spoken in the passion of the moment.

I discovered I had actually prayed only after I started studying my 1599 Geneva Bible and was actively trying to discern what exactly a prayer is. The Bible is full of examples of people praying. But what I wanted to know is how it comes about that a person simply speaking out loud could also be praying without knowing he or she was actually praying at the time? As happened to me.

This question must be answered. Because if we cannot separate the difference between normal conversation and praying, if there is no way to distinguish between the two, than everything we say must also be prayer. Let that sink in for a moment. Think about the ramifications if everything we say is prayer. That would mean He hears everything we say and it then becomes His decision as to whether or not He acts upon what He has heard. It means we better be careful of what we say.

Certainly there must be some definition concerning prayer life. Some theological understanding of when one is in prayer and when one is not in prayer. Isn’t there? The answer that comes to me is no. There is no difference. The words spoken are heard by God whenever He chooses to listen to them. Meaning He hears all, but chooses what He wants to pay attention to.

Because God is the Sovereign LORD of all life. He is the ultimate authority of what is right and what is not right and God wants to know what is going on in His Kingdom thefefore He has established for Himself the right to hear the words of His chosen ones whenever they speak.

I have use the words “chosen ones” because the Bible is full of examples of people who have had the ear of God verses those that do not. I will get into this more later and maybe in a different essay. But for now, consider that Moses had the ear of God (Exodus 3:10) but most of the Israelites did not. And this would hold true for many of the other religious leaders in the Bible, of both the Jewish faith and of the Christian.

As examples; Jesus had the ear of God (Matthew 3:16-17, Luke 4:18) as did the Apostle Paul (Acts 9:5-6).  Aaron and Miriam had the ear of God but sometimes they did not understand the truth of God’s power, read what happened to them in  Numbers 12:2 and following. And the entire clan of Korah and even their close friends did not have the ear of God at all. Read what happened to them in Numbers 16:1 and following. And sometimes people do hear the words of God and choose not to do them, as was the case with Aaron’s two sons. (See Leviticus 10:1 and following).

Prayer is made up of words, God created all that there is using just His Word. Words have meaning and words have power. We must learn to respect the power in words.

Man cannot tell God what to do and what not to do. God is always right. Man is almost always wrong. God does not consult with man before He rules unless He wants to teach a man something. In other words, when God’s chosen ones speak their concerns – God may or may not do what is asked of Him. It is always God’s choice.

Bible study shows me that a prayer might delay God’s decision to act in a particular way but that as you continue to read the scriptures you will see where ultimately God does finish what He started out to do.

For example: God was going to kill all the Israelites after they built a Golden calf at the Mountain of God. But Moses prayed and argued to Him not to do this. (See Exodus 32:10 and following). If you keep studying you will learn that God did kill all the first generation Israelites, including Moses himself, before the camp went into Canaan. (Deuteronomy 31:1 and following) God’s decision to kill the Israelites was delayed long enough by prayer to give the people a chance to change their beliefs and ways. Ultimately God was proven right, the Israelites would not change their ways even after they received the signs and wonders of God. They had to be killed off. God’s original decision was eventually executed.

I do think often of this as I consider my Tree Incident. Will I too be killed off if I do not change my ways?  I fear this might be the outcome of my own struggles. I write these essays so you will consider this also. What will be the outcome of your own life!

So the question for me becomes; Is there a way to frame our prayers to God that we will ensure, or that will result in, His doing more for us who have His ear? In order to “frame our prayers” we must again consider when we are praying and when we are not. Because if everything God’s chosen (also called God’s elect) people say is heard by God then to “frame” our prayers means everything we say must be right. We must come to know, believe and live the righteousness of God all the time, before He will do more of what we ask in prayer.

Whoa that is some frame work to try and keep.

Yet that is precisely what Christians are suppose to do! Is it not?

Let us get back to my prayer at the tree. I say that I did not think about what I was doing as a prayer. Yet, I think I must be lying to myself. The truth would be that when I put my hand on the tree and addressed Jesus I was invoking prayer. And somewhere deep down inside I knew I was doing this. Still, I maintain that in the heat of the moment, in the growing frustration I was feeling, I was not in thoughtful contemplative prayer as one normally envisions in their own mind prayer to be.

It was not a game I was playing with God, I was hot, I was searching in my mind for anything  that would help me get that tree to fall, self serving is what it was, I was not against getting a little help from God above if I could. So in this sense, I did know I was praying. . . But since I was not active in Christianity, I was just play praying – just acting out a prayer and hoping something would come out of it.  I guess what I should really be saying in this essay that I was and still am in shock that the prayer worked.

Since I now completely agree that God is Sovereign. And I believe He is in control of everything. I must now confess that I know in my heart that God put that thought of prayer at the Tree into my mind. I did not come up with that on my own. Everything that happened to me that day (probably even before that day) and every day since is orchestrated by my LORD. He is guiding my footsteps yet I can truthfully say –  I do not do everything right. I now know God listens to my words and He is actively helping me; even answering my prayers to some degree. And He is actively shaping and molding me into a new creature. I know this, I can feel it and I also know when I have done wrong. He does discipline me. All I can say at this time is that He is moving me closer to His righteousness. But I have a long way to go.

I would like to state briefly, that God is speaking to me in my mind, I hear Him and recognize when He is speaking only because what He is saying is different from what I normally would do and say. The voice He has used so far is my own voice. I hear my own voice in my thoughts yet what the voice is saying lines up real well with Biblical teaching and often is at odds with how I normally go about doing things. That is how I know the voice is God. I would imagine, that this is also what the writers of the scriptures felt. What they wrote came from God, it was not taught to them by man, they somehow understood what God was telling them to write. And they did just what He showed them to do. They wrote what eventually became Canon scripture.

From all of that I have written in the previous paragraphs you should now know prayer does not need to be said out loud to be effective. God hears our outbursts as well as our innermost thoughts. I know this because I know when I have  purposely prayed and when I have not purposely prayed and I have identified the gifts God has provided me and therefore I know whether those gifts came from my prayer life or from my private thoughts. Just like what happened at the tree, God answers words and if you can remember when the words were said, recorded, written down, sent as text or emailed you can see for yourself when God sent His Grace on you. For example; when I put my hand on the tree and prayed it was directly afterward the tree moved. I know then when my words were spoken and when God  reacted to those words. If you keep track, you can be more aware of what God is doing with your prayers. If you keep track!

So,  I cannot give a definition as to when we are in prayer verses when we are not in prayer. It appears to me that as a Christian we can be said to be in prayer at all times. Which is why we are to be so concerned with living a Christian life. God follows everything a Christian does and that is how He knows when we need his help.

It appears to me that all outward expressions of being in prayer are not to signify to God we are in prayer but to signify to the Godless, who are all around us, that we are in prayer and communing with God. Bowing our heads, glasping our hands, speaking with reverent tone in our voice does not work to make God more attentive to our prayers. God is already attentive to the Christian. We cannot convince Him to be more attentive than He already is. These prayerful actions are generally outward signs for the nonbelievers who are all around us. Maybe even a benefit to weak Christians as well.

Having said that I also must say that there are times when our souls are so heavy we simply must cry out to God. So we do. God wants us to do just that. He will hear our crys and He will sooth us in His Love. We are human, we belong to God, and there are times when we do what we do because God has decided it is what we need. This is what it means to say God is Sovereign. It is He that decides what we will do. He decides when we should be in prayer with our head bowed low, hands clasped, and softly speaking to Him.

Prayer to our God is not regulated as it is done in church.  We pray whenever we want or need to do so. Sometimes our words, though not intended to be in prayer, are in fact being heard as if we were in prayer.

Who can know the difference?

To a Christian we want to be with God at all times. We are to be in prayer all the times. If we are not, where is our sovereign God going to be? Because we know from our Bible, He will not be with the people who are not his.

The people who are not with God, continue to suffer without his gifts which is the same thing as saying they live without His Grace!

L.

It’s not about the Tree. . . It’s about Grace

I have written a lot these last few days about my experience with cutting down one dead Ash tree that would not be felled until a prayer was said. These words I have shared with you have been a sum total of all that I have experienced on that day and all that I have been silently shown by our LORD within my mind concerning the tree since the actual event took place.

I have written a lot of words to share with you this sign to me from God. This sign was/is a gift from God. A gift that has stopped me in my tracts and caused me to dramatically change directions with my life.. It has been very traumatic for me. I have thought of little else everyday for over 5 + years. But the tree itself is not really the point of this blog. Even though the amount of writing I have done may lead you to believe the tree is THE important part of my story. Or even THE most important part of my life. I assure you it is not. I am not focused on the Tree at this time for any other reason except to share the gift God gave me –  with you.

My desire, is for you who are interested in God and His Son Jesus Christ is to read my witness. To read my report. I want to help you develop your interest, to encourage you to move forward and join me in the Kingdom of God. If your faith is weak, I want to help you find strength to keep moving toward God. The second best way I know how to do this is to share my testimony with you. But the best way for you to move forward to God is to study your Bible scripture. You keep looking for God, it is important that you do because God is watching to see if you are interested in Him. (Please read: Exodus 3:4)

Just to let you know, I have no desire to create a new religion based upon the tree event. No new denomination is forthcoming. I have no desire to build a church. I wouldn’t even set up a stone alter on the tree site if I could. I have not heard any special instructions from our LORD and have no special insights that would lead me to believe He wants another church.. The tree was the silent testimony from God to me telling me He is real. The tree was for me and me alone. We, in Christian circles call this gift from God as being His gift of Grace. As I understand it, it is impossible to become a Christian without receiving Grace from God. Christians receive His gift of Grace in many ways, the Tree is just the way I received it.

And one more final word for tonight. I am receiving no financial reward for this blog. No compensation. It is not being written for money.

 

L.